emma discovery.

andyouarenext @ 2009-11-07T19:02:00

2009-11-08T00:06:46Z

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bean.

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fells point fun fest. this picture was an accident, the autofocus on my lens sometimes doesn't work &i have to smack it against my hand &try to take a picture.

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my large format class went to the greenmount cemetery one day. the first thing i photographed was this bun. but my light meter's battery didn't work, so i had to guess meter everything. this image is the one sheet of film that was super poorly exposed.

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it's started to get cold, so dean wears his vest sometimes.

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he loves it.

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colorado!! me &candy.

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candy on my view camera case.

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biting me, lovingly.

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<3

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deer at the end of my street!

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my babe.

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did some shooting at crystal valley.

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from boulder we drove all the way to yuma, co, where nathaniel's sculpture class is supposed to be planning a community project. it is the worst little town in colorado, there is nothing there.

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we spent so long driving around looking for an abandoned library that was supposed to be cool. it was dark when we finally found it &it was just a building with two glass walls, ¬hing inside.

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bathroom at nat's work.

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rocky votolato! dan &i talked to him again afterwards, &reminded him of what we said to him the first time we saw him. he didn't remember. he is super kind &humble, i love him.

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dan &i stole name tags of people who don't work at nathaniel's work anymore.

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therese's house. nathaniel took this. (i got the one mamiya 7 from the crib with the flame strap, yesss.)

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i love this picture! good job, nathaniel.

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<3

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haunted mines! had an awesome sign. nathaniel &i went my last night in colorado. it was SO COOL.

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candy on my coat.

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i was so layered, it was freezing.

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back in baltimore, dean on halloween! he was a clown.

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jenae as a greaser. i had recently given her a faux-faux-hawk.

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dean &me out trick or treating. i had the craziest long feather eyelashes.

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it started to rain &dean was soooo saaddd.

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jenae trying to do a jump kick.

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my favorite little man.

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jenae &i went to holy redeemer cemetery the other day for one of her projects. i shot 4 x 5 color slide film there.

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love this house on belair.

hey guys. i don't have much to say besides i have six weeks left of school/life in baltimore, i will be spending thanksgiving in buffalo, dan is on his way to my house &will be here within a couple of hours, therese will be here on thursday &is staying for the weekend, nathaniel is spending a whole week with me in december, i am feeling soooo sick today even though i was so adamant to NOT get sick this season (nathaniel is sick too, how can boyfriends manage to get you sick through the phone &from 1,600 miles away?), &i have work up on the juried show as well as a solo exhibition until november 14, which you can find out about on my art blog.
hope you all are well.

andyouarenext @ 2009-10-13T21:20:00

2009-10-14T01:20:56Z

watching my boyfriend sleep the other day because he is sick &i have nothing to do at my work study. i just colored my hair &it is getting sooo lonnggg.

so my laptop's hard drive spontaneously crashed last month ¬hing was able to be recovered from it, so i lost everything i'd edited/shot/made since i got to baltimore &started school this semester. i'm bummed i lost all the originals from nathaniel's visit &everything i shot in ocean city/johnstown/pittsburg (ugh ugh ugh) but it's not the end of the world. i also really, really miss having leopard.

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sandy point!

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the bay bridge.

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state fair.

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jenae &i got soft shell crab sandwiches! which are basically two small crabs whole, eyes &claws &guts &all. now we can say we've done that hahah, ew.

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babies!

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the littlest bean! i LOVE him.

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some digital sketches from my first large format project. i actually didn't shoot any of these with 4x5 :X

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jenae &i rode our bikes to hampden for hampden fest. i will miss city bike rides &HAMPDEN soooo much.
are the pictures that were miraculously still on my camera when my drive crashed. sandy point &the state fair with jenae. there are just a few.
school is going so well &i am so, so excited about/happy with everything i am making/have made in my classes this semester. i'm going out with a bang, that's for sure.
i'm leaving for colorado friday for eight days to check out uc denver &cu boulder (&be with nathaniel &dan!). i'm transferring for sure &can't wait to get out of here. i'm bringing a mamiya 7 &a view camera with me &it is already stressing me outtt. why is it so hard to get a three-foot, 20-pound 4x5 tripod across the country via an airplane?
i still read my friends page religiously, but i haven't been taking a lot of digital pictures or doing anything that isn't art or school related, so follow my art blog to keep up with me! http://emmakisiel.blogspot.com/

oh also, do you know the noise these things make? because it is also the sound mica kids make when they are sick, about every ten seconds. it's the only way i can tell if our roommate is home. it's SO ANNOYING.

andyouarenext @ 2009-10-07T21:18:00

2009-10-08T01:19:22Z

i need to be in colorado, laying in bed next to my boyfriend NOW, not in 9 days :(

andyouarenext @ 2009-10-05T20:26:00

2009-10-06T00:30:00Z

i am overwhelmed by how in love with this person i am.

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-30T08:01:00

2009-09-30T12:02:29Z

last night i had a dream that i saw a man stab someone to death with a hedgehog. i called sylvia plath to tell her about it &when i told her to have a good night she said, "you too, bird. reflect in my hat."

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-26T21:26:00

2009-09-27T01:28:00Z

but if you're a lonely girl
you might as well come on home

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-24T22:41:00

2009-09-25T02:41:58Z

one thing i know you didn't know was how to
fall head first hand in hand into the ocean blue

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-15T16:23:00

2009-09-15T20:31:59Z

so if you haven't seen the new layout/material on my portfolio website (i would guess this is something like version 4 or 5.0), go check it out because dan &i just finished its final phases of editing a couple of hours ago. i am officially launching it tomorrow but those of you reading my livejournal get a heads up either because you are lurkers &creepily dedicated to me or to following my follies or because you are my livejournal friend, &some of you have been since like 2004.
dan made a beautiful jackalope logo for me (if you have been following baltic since its beginning in 2004, you know it has almost always included a jackalope graphic or two &maybe you even have a first edition jackalope baltic tee) &helped with the coding of the site. i couldn't have done it without him.
i am really, really excited about this portfolio website &finally showing what i feel like is a professional body of work that feels like mine. check it out!!

http://balticphotography.com/

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-12T22:49:00

2009-09-13T02:50:38Z

june 11, 2005.

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-05T21:28:00

2009-09-06T01:28:41Z

&IF IT'S SYMPATHY YOU NEED THEN
WELL I'M SORRY
BUT YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE
WHO FEELS
CHEATED

andyouarenext @ 2009-09-02T23:10:00

2009-09-03T03:19:07Z

THREE YEARS!
annual photobooth picture :) taken sometime in july, before i left colorado.

this is the towel cat i made for nathaniel! it has a name tag that says, "you are my very special kitten" (from the science of sleep, naturally).

i call nathaniel my puzzle piece, so i had these charms made for us :) he has the E, i have the N.

nathaniel got me the most amazing present. it's a poesy ring. it says vous et nul autre, "you and no other" in french.
http://www.sensia.com/images/brand_img/dvb/Vous-Et-Nul-Autre_lg.jpg

ugghhh i love it so much. it's perfect.

of course we got each other lots of other silly little things, too. nathaniel also got me a necklace he knew i really wanted &white christmas lights, since dean chewed on &broke the ones nathaniel got for me freshman year.

i can't wait til we have an anniversary we can actually spend together! we have never had a one-year in the same state.
i am so in love, so lucky, &so happy.
♥

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-30T10:50:00

2009-08-30T14:52:21Z

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the view from our kitchen window.

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dean being starved for my attention. we spent so much time alone here, we were so lonely.

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he spends every second with me in my room or on my bed. he never used to. i think it's cos the futon he used to sit on is so much farther away from my room now.

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i was trying to photograph that dresser to send to our new roommate, dean wouldn't get off of it.

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hampden. i rode my bike there &was so exhausted/hot/sweaty i just turned around &rode right back.

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marshmallow! i made this for nathaniel based on this book.

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king dean.

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nathaniel! on our way back from the charles. we saw district 9.

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♥, waiting for the light rail to hunt valley to get chipotle &see 500 days of summer, TWO MOVIES IN ONE DAY!

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walking to hampden.

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the abandoned streetcars.

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oh man it was sooo hot this day.

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this was nice.

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modely nat. really just hot &tired.

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♥

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so nice.

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hahah nathaniel was so miserable.

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this was right before we finally escaped the heat &wandered in to this new &really nice restaurant that had air conditioning. they were so sweet to us.

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pizza on the roof.

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the cutest bean.

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he loves nathaniel.

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took the marc to dc, THE CORCORAN IS CLOSED ON TUESDAYS.

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SO WE DIDN'T GET TO SEE THIS SHOW. but we did happen upon an awesome h &m, which might have been the funnest part of our day.

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nathaniel being stupid.

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me being stupid.

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this is a good one.

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luff.

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at the smithsonian, i wanted this.

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nathaniel took these.

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going home.

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the best dinner of my entire life.

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seriously, the cutest bean.

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he loves to do this.

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nathaniel &i went on a double date with fame &jenae. i am super lame &love the cheesecake factory.

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♥♥♥
my heart broke in two when he left in the morning.

we had such a good time, it was so nice to have him here.
the day he left jenae &i drove to johnstown. we stayed there for a few days &relaxed &went to pittsburgh. i will post pictures soon. when we came back to baltimore we went to ocean city for the day. i will post pictures soon. (i am soso tan.)
i start class tomorrow. i am nervous but i am going to make the most of this semester because i am 90% sure it will be my last at mica. i am taking four photo studios &i'm not sure what else. still have to figure that out.
nathaniel is in photo 1 at boulder. i had him tell me about it because obviously i'd like to know more about the department at the school i'll probably be transferring to. it sounds... ridiculous. if i am disappointed with mica's photo department i will probably die in boulder's. hopefully a lot of my credits will transfer &i can just throw a degree together at boulder in a year &a half. i am concerned.

in other news, i watched seasons 1-4 of the office in less than three weeks, plus season one of the british version. i dream about the characters at night.

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-23T10:07:00

2009-08-23T14:09:00Z

i love this person SO MUCH.
i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.
three years on next wednesday &still so in love. so happy.

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-12T13:26:00

2009-08-12T17:30:41Z

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this is a really good/cheap dinner nathaniel &i made one of the nights i spent the weekend in boulder.

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that is a book called marshmallow which i brought nathaniel from the library because it is so so cute.

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this is an abandoned house on the way back to boulder from estes park.

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i am making this really stupid face because it was really, really stinky in there. &we didn't know why until nathaniel noticed this:

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hah, i don't know how we missed it! i was taking pictures seriously like a six degree turn away from it. it was HUGE. an elephant-size cow!

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:P

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we took lots of pictures cos we couldn't believe it!

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i love colorado.

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in nederland.

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<3!

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this is at my internship at the fine arts center, during the exhibitions class i assisted for. my sponsor, blake, is showing the students pieces in the permanent collection that they can choose from to built their own exhibition. i'm bummed i won't be there to see it.

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nathaniel &i went to the manitou cliff dwellings, which were such a BUMMER. probably cos we'd just been to mesa verde, but still, we were really disappointed. plus, it poured.

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they aren't even natural. they were moved there as a tourist attraction. but they don't even tell you that. my mom did.

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this little pond is right next to the fine arts center. i've been going there for years &years (pictures of it have been on so many of my livejournal entries, hah) &i never knew the name of it. but it was so nice to take a nap there some days before or after i interned.

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nathaniel being the tree i had photographed him climbing there last summer, it's since been chopped down.

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:)

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this is the day i took nice pictures of aubrey. she had asked me to &i was really excited to. nathaniel always comes with me on things like this because he is like my assistant. this spot we went to was SO HARD to get to &get around. nathaniel &i walked out through the creek, &i fell &hurt my foot SO BAD.

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he took his shirt off &played in the water the whole time i photographed aubrey. that's nathaniel.

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then we went to monument lake (which we didn't get to go swimming at ONCE this summer because it rained almost every day &never ever got hot enough).

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&nathaniel took pictures of me &alisha &aub because we never had any.

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i want this week to be over so bad. on sunday i am going to dc to meet nathaniel (&his family) &then i am bringing him home with me! i'm really excited to see the william eggleston show at the corcoran while i'm there &just not be in baltimore for a day. also i am excited to get away from these motherfuckers

that have practically taken over my bedroom. I HATE THEM SO MUCH, I WANT TO MOVE BACK TO THE WEST &NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN. there was a momma one in our living room when jenae was still here, &i have seen three or four baby ones in my bedroom (one crawling on me in my bed) &(the remains of) another huge one (on dean's face, after watching him crunch on something on my rug).
i am going to go ride my bike to hampden now to escape.
also nathaniel &his family are riding kayaks around an island in virginia beach in search of wild ponies right now, what?

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-07T11:24:00

2009-08-07T15:24:40Z

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candy really hated dean for a while. this was the first half of my time home, when they were warming up to each other enough to lay on opposite ends of my bed together.

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candy wasn't happy unless dean was almost falling off.

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dead jackrabbit on the way from boulder to golden, which we drove by about ten times on account of i realized at the milk factory that i had forgotten my yaschica.

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dan's place of work. playing with my cameras.

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little bean on my bed.

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dean's first time outside, in the backyard at my parents' house. he doesn't really like the feel of grass. &he cried a lot.

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lion stance.

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dad.

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dean loves mom.

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therese took this, it was on the way to helen hunt falls. a weird vulture-like creature jumping up the side of the hill.

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candy's little mattew woodson antlers.

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ron burgundy.

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it rained probably every single afternoon in colorado this summer.

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huge dead crow.

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after the fourth of july, on the way back from durango.

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these cows surprised us.

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nathaniel &i have a joke about the two-man wolf pack :)

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we stopped at this taxidermy shop outside monte vista, it seriously looked like no one had been inside it in 30 years, even though there were a few people inside when we got there.

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common sense... ?

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i bought one of these.

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the man who ran the shop was named ernest, he let us look around in his shop &he showed us these books he had written &just had published about his over 80 years of outdoor experience.

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it looked like he just threw his scraps outside in his yard...

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a human hand?

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...yeah. just in his yard.

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&the walsenburg plant, which we always try to go to on our trips to durango.

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nathaniel is retarded.

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a barn owl! she was so beautiful, she just sat up there watching us. she would fly back &forth across the room sometimes.

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back home.

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nathaniel replacing my starter after my accident.

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ron all jacked up in my parents' driveway.

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dean, confused.

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my collections from eden.

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dean walking across the lawn in between its grass &rocks stages.

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best boyfriend ever.

i am pretty bored here.
praying jenae can come to baltimore this weekend so we can go to ocean city for a day.
if not it's 9 days til nathaniel jones!

also i rode my bike around yesterday, my butt hurts.
today's goal is to get college application essays done for colorado. i've probably applied to more colleges than any normal college student.

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-03T21:37:00

2009-08-04T01:39:15Z

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a little family of foxes moved in to the ditch on the street that goes up to my parents' house. grass on his nose.

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momma fox.

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candy.

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eden. we went in search of bones, there are SO many.

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i had just been telling nathaniel how weird the ranch must have looked with dead animal bodies with the flesh &fur still on them all over the place, &how happy i would be to see just like a head with fur still on it. &then we found one!

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i stayed with it for like a half an hour. it was so beautiful.

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petrified kangaroo rat. treasure.

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nathaniel had long hair for a while. it is really strange to see now. it doesn't even feel like it's him.

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huge cow skull.

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i had photographed this ranch my senior year in high school, i think it was the first time i used my canon 30d. it's funny to see how BAD those images are, hah. plus THIS is the first time i ever shot using raw. eden is the place for firsts.

i'm just catching up on editing images from this summer since i now have a lot of time on my hands. jenae &i moved in to the new apartment &now she is home &i am alone here with dean. the apartment is really cute, i like it a lot. &i do have a lot to do, i just can't find the motivation. maybe tomorrow i will get most of my sewing projects done. &then i will save my first bike ride for a cooler day. i spent most of today getting little things done/unpacked/moved around &looking around on the internet for inspiration for things i want to make.

http://www.modcloth.com/store/ModCloth/Womens/Accessories/Necklaces/Nova+Scotia+Necklace
i really want this necklace!

dean has been such a sweetheart. he really is one of the best cats. he's been sleeping an awful lot lately, though, which is worrying me. he's suddenly taken to sleeping with me in my bed, he almost never used to. he follows me everywhere &talks to me often. he's such a good boy. i love him.

nathaniel's family is coming to ocean city/virginia beach/williamsburg/dc for a vacation next week. i'm not allowed to go with them (i don't want to talk about it, i am more than upset that my boyfriend will be at a beach three hours away from me &i won't be able to be with him) but nathaniel might extend his stay &come see me for a few days. i am really excited.

andyouarenext @ 2009-08-02T00:18:00

2009-08-02T04:19:14Z

"you feel like you're alone, will?"
"what?"
"do you have a soul mate?"
"do i have a... ? define that."
"someone who challenges you."

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-29T21:41:00

2009-07-30T03:48:28Z

well, i missed my flight to baltimore today. because i had dean i wasted 25 minutes standing in the wrong line, then when i was redirected to the right line i was told that i missed the cutoff so my bags couldn't be checked so i would have to carry them on, &that the plane had to close its doors early because another plane was coming in behind it, so naturally when i got to security i got stopped because all my toiletries were in my suitcases that were supposed to be checked, so they just threw everything out, &then about five airport employees stood around the monitor laughing at the fact that i had a foot trap in my suitcase, &then decided amongst themselves whether or not i could bring it with me, so then i ran to my gate, which was at the very end, with a backpack, a cat, &two huge suitcases, only to find out that my plane had left, which was to be expected. i had a bad feeling about it from the start anyway.
so dean &i have been camped out at nathaniel's in boulder. we are trying the same flight again tomorrow morning.

nathaniel &i found a 2-pack of polaroid film at a thrift store, then we took 20 polaroids in one day. they are

sitting right next to each other, the other day.

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-22T21:22:00

2009-07-23T03:23:14Z

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my dad taking pictures of some elk in rocky mountain national park. my parents &i went for a weekend in june &then spent the night at a hotel in boulder because my mom won it in a raffle or something.

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mom caught off-guard, &looking gray.

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we only saw bulls! i was so surprised.

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it rained.

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estes park.

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taking a tour at celestial seasonings, as per mom's request.

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on the way to durango! just after walsenburg where we were stuck in traffic for over an hour. i was exhausted cos i had had to pee SO BAD, zack took over driving the jeep for a while.

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camping on the 4th!

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katie &max.

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zack bug spraying.

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boys shooting guns.

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my sister shooting guns.

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weiners.

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max made the grossest brat.

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i am showing my muscles, for some reason.

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we wandered deep into our camp site because there was a really big herd of sheep making a lot of noise at the bottom of the valley. we thought we could get to them but some of us were too drunk to go on.

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nathaniel hugging a lonely aspen.

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max made another gross brat. it was so gross it fell apart &dropped into the fire. someone put it on a rock &tried to cook it that way, &i think max ended up eating it because he thought it would rid him of his hiccups which he'd had for hours.

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<3

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max, i think this is when he was really upset because of said hiccups.

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walking out to watch fireworks.

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we ended up not being able to see them over durango, but the moon was SO BRIGHT.

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sleepy hungover morning boy.

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nathaniel &i were the only ones not hung over the next day, so we went to mesa verde.

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we took a tour of balcony house.

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magpie.

from katie &max's camera;
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rich &nate at dinner our first night.

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i wasn't around for this.

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camping.

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we were a five minute walk from a beautiful lake. max &i got in, but then katie told us she saw a leech &made us get out.

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some fireworks.

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cooking the tequila worm.

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apples to apples.

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dead fish face.

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shotgunning beers! this was the only alcohol i drank all weekend. &i don't think i even swallowed any, hahah, i had never shotgunned a beer before! i got it all over nathaniel's nice sweatshirt. there are pictures but they are too embarrassing to show. there is also a video :P

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i rolled my ankle gathering firewood :(

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:)

i still have some catching up to do on editing. i don't think i've gone through any of the images i took on the nikon since i've been in colorado for the summer. i actually took a lot of pictures on the drive home from durango, i'll post them sometime soon.
nathaniel, zack, alisha, aubrey, therese &i went to waterworld on monday, it was really fun.
i only have ten hours left at my internship, &i leave for baltimore a week from today.
i just want to drive up to boulder &be with nathaniel until i have to leave.

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-21T21:42:00

2009-07-22T03:43:01Z

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-14T16:39:00

2009-07-14T22:40:28Z

i am completely in love &happier than i have been in a long, long time.
this summer has been the hardest time of my life. i have changed so much since i left baltimore.

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-08T21:46:00

2009-07-09T03:46:53Z

what
honest words
she can't afford to say

andyouarenext @ 2009-07-03T09:38:00

2009-07-03T15:38:18Z

here goes.

andyouarenext @ 2009-06-30T09:34:00

2009-06-30T15:34:53Z

EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT

or

I DON'T OWE YOU ANYTHING.

andyouarenext @ 2009-06-26T19:04:00

2009-06-27T01:05:20Z